Dove Cameron has been having a hard time processing the death of her friend and Descendants costar Cameron Boyce.

“When I heard about Cameron, I had just woken up early in a London hotel room to the sound of my phone ringing off the hook,” Dove told Seventeen magazine in an interview published on Wednesday, July 31st.

“I was “I was nervous about why I could be getting so many texts and calls, so I only looked at my mother’s text. I knew she would be the gentlest, and the most concise, whatever it was.”

Cameron went on to detail the moment she learned about the death of Boyce on July 6. Her mother’s text “explained what had happened and I immediately phoned Booboo [Stewart], who had already called me twice. We just sobbed without speaking. If there was a word stronger than devastated that could describe the depth of pain that I was feeling, I would use it.”